If we’re being completely honest, staying motivated and consistent is harder than ever right now. Seems like everyone is desperately trying to find a silver lining in the fact that the world as we knew it is currently turned upside down. I can’t deny that I am envious of people who can remain calm and productive in emergency situations. My anxiety has been more than present lately. I worry and overthink myself too death waaay more than I’d like to admit. This corona virus and social distancing situation we are currently facing has me feeling like I definitely haven’t done as much self work as I thought.
Businesses are currently shut down, all hiring has pretty much been froze and people everywhere are losing their jobs. The only people cleared to go to work are “essential workers”.
Here’s how Fox News defines essential worker – “The meaning generally applies to workers in law enforcement and public safety, food production, health care providers and emergency personnel, among others.”
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The unemployment website has been crashing due to the extremely high volume of new cases. The government and President has cleared a stimulus package to help the current economy and keep businesses afloat. Every week it’s some sort of new discovery concerning this virus and the state of the world right now.
Last week I found out one of my immediate family members has contracted covid-19. Although they currently aren’t showing any symptoms, they are quarantined at home, resting and doing their best to take care of themselves. This is truly a scary and unpredictable time.
I know I am not alone when I say all of this has sidetracked my normal routine. My sleep schedule is all over the place. In December, I got myself a gym membership and I had been going regularly up until now since all the gyms closed until further notice. I’ve been trying to do home workouts but I’ve been eating like crazy since sheltering in place began.
The biggest silver lining in all this has been my boyfriend. I know it sounds super cheesy lol but we have been in this together every step of the way. In the beginning, it was difficult adjusting to both of us being home together all day everyday. Our apartment seemed to get smaller and smaller. Now we have definitely found our rhythm. We know how and when to give each other space. I have my video games, books, and shows to keep me busy. He has his art, cooking, tv shows and video games to help keep him grounded as well. It is definitely a blessing to have a partner to go through all of this with. This has strengthen our bond and is helping us learn even more about one another. He is my constant in the chaos.
I know all of this can be very frightening but I also know God is always in control. He always has a plan. I will admit I have strayed further and further away from my religious practices and God continues to place me in faith testing situations. I know He wants my full trust. There is nothing any of us can do without him. The sooner we figure that out the better off we will be. In times like this where this countries leadership seems so divided and confused, we only have the Lord to lean on for guidance and understanding.
In a world that is constantly rushing and pressuring us to have everything figured out, where capitalism is telling us to figure out ways to make money from home while people are dying at alarming rates, when resting and taking care of ourselves makes us feel guilty, it is imperative that we have to find and reserve our inner peace.
It’s no secret things are extremely difficult right now. I am still a big advocate for not letting anyone rush you. We are all still on our own separate journey. Our only job in all of this is figuring out what works for us individually. Find your footing, figure out your rhythm, try not to set too many expectations, log out when needed, take everything one day at a time, and do not forget to rest. Taking care of ourselves is literally the only way we will survive this.
I’m not sure if posting every week is something I can sustain right now. Creativity and motivation is real touch and go these days. So I apologize in advance for my inconsistency when it comes to posting new blogs. I do plan on writing the third installment to my short story so look out for that sometime soon.
Love & light everyone.
Thank you for reading and I promise we’ll chat again soon.